Saturday, October 17, 2009
wet preservation
we have chosen crab for our wet preservation.we were the only group used dead specimen.other groups all using alive specimens.so cruel them.
Friday, October 2, 2009
love this story
妻说,是你将我抱进家门的,要离婚了,你再将我抱出这个家门吧。
与妻结婚的时候,我是将她抱过来的。那时我们住的是那种一家一户的平房,婚车在门前停下来的时候,一伙朋友撺纵着我,将她从车上抱下来,于是,在一片叫好声中,我抱起了她一直走到典礼的地方。那时的妻是丰盈而成熟的娇羞女孩,我是健壮快乐的新婚男人。
这是十年前的一幕。
以后的日子就像是流水一样过去,要孩子,下海,经商,婚姻中的熟视无睹渐渐出现在我们之间。钱一点点地往上涨,但感情却一点点地平下去,妻在一家行政机构做公务员,每天我们同时上班,也几乎同时下班,孩子在寄宿学校上学。在别人看来,生活似乎是无懈可击的幸福。但越是这种平静的幸福,便越容易有突然变化的机率。
我有了她。当生活像水一样乏味而又无处不在,哪怕一种再简单的饮料,也会让人觉得是一种真正的享受。她就是露儿。
天气很好,我站在宽大的露台上,露儿伸了双臂,将我从后面紧紧抱住。我的心再一次被她感情包围,几乎让我无法呼吸。这是我为露儿买的房子。
露儿对我说,像你这样的男人,是最吸引女孩子的眼球的。我忽然想起了妻,刚刚结婚的时候,她似乎说过一句,像你这样的男人,一旦成功之后,是最吸引女孩子的眼球的。想起妻的聪明,心里微微地打上了一个结,我清楚地意识到,自己对不起她。但却欲罢不能。
我推开露儿的手,说你自己看着买些家具吧,公司今天还有事。露儿分明地不高兴起来,毕竟,今天说好了要带她去买家具的。关于离婚的那个可能,已经在我的心里愈来愈大起来,原本觉得是不太可能的事情,竟然渐渐地能在心里想像成可能。
只是,我不知道如何对妻子开口,因为我知道,开口了之后必然要伤害她的。妻没有对不起我的地方,她依旧忙忙碌碌地在厨房里准备晚上的饭菜,我依旧打开电视,坐在那里,看新闻,饭菜很快上桌,吃饭,然后两个人在一起看电视,或是一个人坐在电脑前发会儿呆。想像露儿的身体,成了我自娱的方式。试着对妻说,如果我们离婚,你说会怎样?妻白了我一眼,没有说话,似乎这种生活离她很远。我无法想象,一旦我说出口时,妻的表现和想法。
妻去公司找我时,露儿刚从我办公室里出来。公司里的人的眼光是藏不住事情的,在几乎所有人都以同情的目光和那种掩饰的语言说话的时候,妻终于感觉出了什么。她依旧对着我的所有下属以自己的身份微笑着,但我却在她来不及躲闪的一瞬间,从她的眼神中读出了一种伤害。
露儿再次对我说,离婚吧何宁,我们在一起。我点头,心里已经将这个念头扩到非说不可的地步了。妻端上最后一盘菜时,我按住了她的手。说我有件事要告诉你。妻坐下来,静静地吃着饭,我想起了她眼神中的那种伤害,此刻分明地再一次显出来。突然间觉得自己有些不忍,但事到如今,却只能说下去。咱们离婚吧,我平静地说着不平静的事。妻没有表现出那种很特别的情绪,淡淡地问我为什么。我笑,说:不,我不是开玩笑,是真的离婚。妻的态度骤然变化起来,她恨恨地摔了筷子,对我大声说,你不是人!
夜里,我们谁也没理谁,妻在小声地哭,我知道她是想知道为什么。但我却给不了她答案,因为我已经在露儿给我的感觉里无法自拔。我起草了协议给妻看,里面写明了将房子,车子,还有公司的30股权分给她。写这些东西时,心里是一直怀了对妻的歉疚的,妻愤愤地接过,撕成碎片儿,不再理我。我感觉自己的心竟然隐隐地有些疼起来,毕竟是一起生活了十年的爱人,所有的温柔都将在未来化去,就这样的慢慢的过去,到了第二天.
陪客户喝酒,半醉的我回到家中时,妻正伏在那里写着什么。我躺在床上睡去,醒来的时候,发现妻依旧坐在那里。我翻个身,再沉沉地睡去。终于闹到了非离不可的地步,妻却对我声明,她什么也不要我的,只是在离婚之前,要我答应她一个条件。妻的条件简单,便是再给她一个月的时间,因为再过一个月,孩子就过完暑假了,她不想让孩子看到父母分开的场面,而且,在这一个月里还要像以前那样生活。
我接过妻写的协议,她问我,何宁,你还记得我是怎么嫁过来的吗?蓦地,关于新婚的那些记忆涌上来,我点头,说记得。妻说,是你将我抱进来的,但是我还有个条件,就是要离婚了,你再将我抱出这个家门吧。这一来一去,都是你做主好了,只是,我要求这一个月,每天上班,你都要将我抱出去,从卧室,到大门。
我笑,说:好。我想妻是在以这种形式来告别自己的婚姻,或是还有对过去眷恋的缘故。我将妻的要求告诉了露儿,露儿笑得有些轻佻,说再怎么还是离婚,搞这么多花样做什么。她似乎对妻很不屑,这或多或少让我心里不太舒服。
一个月为限,第一天,我们的动作都很呆板。因为一旦说明之后,我们已经有很久没有这么亲密接触过了,甚至连例行的每周两次的****时间也取消了,每天都像路人一样。儿子从身后拍着小手说,爸爸搂妈妈了,爸爸搂妈妈了,叫得我有些心酸。从卧室经客厅,出房门,到大门,十几米的路程,妻在我的怀抱里,轻轻地闭着眼睛,对我说,我们就从今天开始吧,别让孩子知道。我点头,刚刚落下去的心酸再一次地浮上来。我将妻放在大门外,她去等公交,我去开车上班。
第二天,我和妻的动作都随意了许多,她轻巧地靠在我的身上,我嗅到她清新的衣香,妻确实是老了,我已有多少日子没有这么近的看过她了,光润的皮肤上,有了细细的皱纹。我怎么没发现过妻有皱纹了呢,还是自己已是多久没有注意到自己这个熟悉到骨头里的女人了呢。
第三天,妻附在我的耳边对我说,院子里的花池拆了,要小心些,别跌倒了。
第四天,在卧室里抱起妻的时候,我有种错觉,我们依旧是十分亲密的爱人,她依旧是我的宝贝,我正在用心去抱她,而所有关于露儿的想像,都变得若有若无起来。
第五天,六天,妻每次都会在我耳边说一些小细节,衣服熨好了挂在哪里,做饭时要小心不要让油溅着,我点着头,心里的那种错觉也越来越强烈起来。
我没有告诉露儿这一切。感觉到自己越来越不吃力了,似乎是锻炼的结果,我对妻说,现在抱你,不怎么吃力了。
妻在挑拣衣服,我在一边等着抱她出门。妻试了几件,都不太合适,自己叹了口气,坐在那里,说衣服都长肥了。我笑,但却只笑了一半,我蓦然间想起自己越来越不吃力了,不是我有力了,而是妻瘦了,因为她将所有的心事压在心里。那一瞬间,心里紧紧地疼起来,我伸出手去,试图去抚妻的额角。
儿子进来了,爸爸,该抱妈妈出门了。他催促着我们,似乎这么些天来,看我抱妻出门,已经成了他的一个节目。妻拉过儿子,紧紧地抱住,我转过了脸不去看,怕自己将所有的不忍转成一个后悔的理由。从卧室出发,然后经客厅,屋门,走道,我抱着妻,她的手轻巧而自然地揽在我的脖子上。我紧紧地拥着她的身体,感觉像是回到了那个新婚的日子,但妻越来越轻的身体,却常常让我忍不住想落泪。
最后一天,我抱起妻的时候,怔在那里不走。儿子上学去了,妻也怔怔地看着我说,其实,真想让你这样抱到老的。我紧紧地抱了妻,对她说,其实,我们都没有意识到,生活中就是少了这种抱你出门的亲密。
停下车子的时候,我来不及锁上车门,我怕时间的延缓会再次打消我的念头。我敲开门,露儿一脸的惺松。我对她说,对不起露儿,我不离婚了。真的不离了。露儿不相信一般看着我,伸出手来,摸着我的头,说你没发烧呀。我打开露儿的手,看着她,对她说,对不起露儿,我只有对你说对不起,我不离婚了,或许我和她以前,只是因为生活的平淡教会了我们熟视无睹,而并不是没有感情,我今天才明白。我将她抱进了家门,她给我生儿育女,就要将她抱到老,所以,只有对你说对不起。
露儿似乎才明白过来,愤怒地扇了我一耳光,关了门,大哭起来。我下楼,开车去公司。路过那家上班时必经的花店的时候,我给妻子订了一束她最喜欢的情人草,礼品店的小姐拿来卡片让我写祝语,我微笑着在上面写上:我要每天抱你出家门,一直到老。
男的都应该用心看看,每个男人到你成功时,也许都会有这种经历,学学吧,不要让自己老时后悔了,伤害最大的是孩子,如果成功后不要妻子,还不如不要成功,一家过苦日子也许也是幸福。
中秋節
中秋節有著中國美麗的傳說,儘管美國太空人,在登陸月球後, 已證實了月球上無生物生存的事實,但這古老的傳說,仍深入民心,至今我們仍深深愛著這些傳說。
傳說在幾千年以前,天上出現了十個太陽,人間受盡了酷熱的煎熬,於是帝堯就命令后羿去和十 個 太 陽 交涉,但太陽們互不相讓,於是後羿就用弓箭將九個太陽射下來,后羿也受到了人間熱烈的歌頌。但身為十個太陽的父親 --天帝非常生氣,於是下令不准后羿夫妻返回天庭,后羿之妻因此怪罪后羿,后羿就離開了嫦娥,嫦娥在非常失望之下,偷吃了仙藥,身子就輕飄飄的飛向天空,天帝一怒之下就把他變成了兔子,讓他在月亮的廣寒宮為天帝搗藥。
月宮中除了有玉兔外還有吳剛,他本來是個樵夫,由於醉心於修仙,而忽略了砍柴的工作,天帝一怒之下就命令他天天砍伐一棵桂樹,誰知這棵桂樹砍下去之後,馬上又長出來,吳剛就這樣永不停息的在砍樹。
中秋節也是個團圓的日子,除了吃月餅、賞月外,還有應節水果--龍眼和柚子,很多人也會到郊外賞月烤肉,在盡興之餘,同時也製造了許多垃圾,實在是不應該。可別讓嫦娥笑我們髒!
boring friday
today is a boring friday. went granny hse also have to bring my laptop to rush my assignment.but at granny house always no mood to do homework.most of the time,i bring my books and laptop bck home from thursday to saturday, only saturday after lunch around 3pm only can do my work. thursday and friday can't do my work at ALL!but saturday 6pm i got to get ready bck hostel already. so actually the time i really do my assignment not more than 3 hours.is too bad.=.=lll
friday night like missing something.mayb is ah B not on the line.went celebrate jax's birthday at club. i think he should be enjoying the clubbing now.he leave me alone.im missing him here but he enjoying over there.B,i miss u so much!!!!miss ur voice neh.T_T
hope he dun "PLAY PLAY" over thr.if not i cut cut cut!!lolx.....
2moro night is mooncake festival.my hostel thr got celebrate.they will have BBQ and steamboat.invite around 40 juniors come to our hse.but im not going to join the party.because when i bck hostel,the party ady start half way.no fun if join half way.and TOO MUCH peoples d. don't think can really enjoy it and don't think can really have space for me to sit down and eat.i don't know how my hse gonna fix 50 sth peoples 2moro.over crowded.maybe when i bck hostel, want find a space to walk also hard.@@'' but i hope they enjoy the party 2moro la even though i did't join them.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
glass cutting
blacky wednesday
What a bad day i have today?!!!since morning bad luck until now.this morning during half way of assembly,suddenly rain.get wet when run bck to class.then,when we waiting for lecturer come in, my classmate told us lecturer couldn't enter the class TODAY,because she is busy with something.that English lesson is 8-10am.me and my roomate stay in the class until 9sth.we so bored coz got nth to do in the class, so we decided go to college book shop to bind our assignment that need to submit 2day.BUT,during we went for binding our work and submit our work,the English lecturer enter the class.she saw many of us not around the classroom,(she didn't notice me and my mate not around,she just asking: WHERE ARE THE GUYS?)after awhile,the guys have come and she SHOOT them badly. ONE of the guys not happy with the lecturer and talk rudely with the lecturer.he complained the lecturer unfair coz just scold them and no scolding GIRLS (which are my mate and me,because we also not around the class).SHIT MAN! DAMN IT!he makes the lecturer MAD.and lecturer shoot me and my mate badly when we rush bck to the class,no matter how we explain to her why we were late for the class, she also don't want to listen and ask the class monitor to give GERO for me and my mate in the attendance book.WHAT THE!we just only late for 20 minutes.she gave us ZERO.and never hear our explanation at all.keep on saying we are wrong and even said me and mate not the 1st time do other thing during her time.CRAZY OLD WOMAN!since when me and mate do other things during her period????????!!!!!!!!!!!we NEVER and NOT DARE do other thing during her time.because we know she will mad.this is our 1st time,and if not my classmate told us that she won't enter the class today, we also won't go out submit our work on that time.that was so UNLUCKY!!!!!!!!and all the fault is come from that SHIT GUY.if not he make the lecturer fire,maybe me and mate won't be shoot like a dummy dog.
internet line suck
The internet line really bad, i want do research or skype chat with B also cannot.T_T
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
mooncake festival
Just only bck from college.2day,we were invited by super super super juniors to join their mooncake festival event.luckily i went for this event,if not i really miss up this nice event lo.the programs they prepared all very creative and nice.much more better than previous years.all the audiences enjoy the show very much!this new batch juniors have did a great job.we can see their efforts on preparing 2nite event.the singers and artists tonite very professional.teacher not only can teach but also can sing very well and act drama very well neh.congratulation to them because able to carry out the event successfully and thank you them for giving us an unforgettable+great mooncake festival night.
preparing chemical solution
yesterday learned the theory, today we finally can try it out by our own.i took the photos during the process we prepare the chemical solution.my group was the 1st group done.coz we went to lab early today.now i know how to prepare a chemical solution from a solid and also know how to dilute the chemical solution from high concentration to low concentration.cool!!
pak la
2 days ago, my roomate and i went to Pak La Eat House to hv our dinner.thr have many small atap house which we at sit inside to hv our meal.nice feel.but,when we eat our dinner,a pregnant cat suddenly jump to our atap hse,keep on staring on our food.we tried to do some body action ask her go down,but she don't want to move.her eyes never move from our food.got 1 malay girl saw it,use her fun fried to attract the cat,but the cat still don't want to go out,until that malay girl hug the cat down,we only can continue our food.but not more than 5 mins,that cat comes again.the cat went to my right side and i shift my plate to left,then she saw the plate at the left,she also follow to the left.i shift to right,she also follow the plate to the right.@@''im trying to use water chase her down,but she different from other cat.other cat scare water but she not scare at all.=.=ll i got no idea to chase her down,then my mate and i decided faster finished our food and go bck.
beautiful lotus
last friday,i fetched my brothers went temple for praying.outside the big door of the temple,they got plant the lotus plant and all the lotus flower open so pretty.i take the chance snap a photo and post it here.really really beautiful.my aunty and my friend also said nice shoot. my roomate thought i download from net.@@''
alcohol drink
This is my 1st time drink alcohol drink.last time i only drink sandy.last thursday my mum suddenly ask wanna try or not.because my house got Heineken.haha....then i tried it lo.i thought i can't drink and will drunk,but out of my expectation.i drink half bottle also no feeling.mayb it too light.Heineken only 5% alcohol.so my body still can stand with it.ah B said wanna train me wor.lolx...
end of the day.....
Now already 12.43am, is time to go bed.Good9 lo.2nite watched some nice video clips.make me laugh non-stop.thx for my friends sharing.
shit!
yiiiiiiiiiiiii...............super super geli.just now watch a post video.the girl shitting in the pool.yuckkssssssssss.RUN!!!
Monday, September 28, 2009
suprising!
Just now chat with B, he told me his mum miss me.haha..........so surprise aunty miss me neh. and she jz bck from china.B told me aunty has bought me a shirt and a special thing wor.WOW!!im so happy that aunty went travel still remember me!his mum so cute la.bought present for all his son's wifes and gf.but non to her sons.haha......i am wondering what is the special thing but that notty B dun wan let me know.bad bad...
BORED!!!
Super duper bored!!essay essay and essay!1200 words actually not much for me.but the problems is no point to write.if i got the point i sure can write.keep on thinking the point.now i got 2 reading problems already.left 1 more point then i can finished it very fast.factors and suggestion to solve the problems is easier to get the information.so i not that worry.
Ask me write essay i can only concentrate for maximum 2 hours.but Facebook i can whole day...im really not a good student.T_T
just now 9pm only start try to do my essay but now my eyes so heavy d.feel sleepy.lolx..
get new knowledge
This evening saw a video clip from Facebook. i just only realize that condom very USEFUL on many ways.share the video with all of those never watch before.^o^
Rainnnnn
There was so many days no rain at Kedah.kedah hoTTTTTT like crazy.and the fan in my room at hostel cannot function.already cannot function for monthly. we got report at office but the worker didn't come repair.now temporary use small fan that i borrowed from my granny.everyday like stay in oven.Finally...........................2day rain so heavy.the weather now very good.but my clothes die la.coz can't dry.got to use fan dry it.=.=lll
couplesssss
reading problem essay.........
haizzzzzzzz.....................2day consult lecturer been shoot.i show her draft ask her abt what exactly the reading problems she wants, coz the scope is too wide.she saw and rejected it.said me not enough reading.but i have already find a lot of references and did research.all about reading disable and reading disabilities.im not sure she want very specific 1 or just genaral problem.ask her, she not given suggestions or advice but shoot me in front the classmates.what the................this is why i very lazy to find her 1.she really likes to scold ppl.my class got 19 students.19 of us consult her,she can scold 19 of us 1.@@''
i really hv no idea how to write it.the reading problems i find she said wrong.then how im going to start!due date is 1st of oct. heard my friend said MAYBE can extend.hope really can extend la.if not really dead meat.dunno how to vomit the essay to her.
facebook kaki
recently really addicted to facebook....................everyday must be facebook.no facebook like missing puzzle of the day.my bf even jealous on it.say me fb more important than bf.lolx.....................@@''
dinner
2day not going out for dinner coz of my laziness.so,my dinner for tonight is instant mee.........many ppl hate to eat instant mee, like my roomate, but dunno why,i like to eat.although i know that is not good to our health.but im not eat it always.1 week 1 pack,i think still ok.^o^
hungry hungry...............time for my dinner lo.
science lesson
2day we have science class. this semester,the science is quite fun.1st time,we have learned how to preserve dry specimens.that time every science students busy for catching the insects around.haha!so sensitive with the surrounding.everyday ready plastic.once saw insect,direct catch it ready for preservation.the dry preservation was pair work,me and my roomate is 1 pair.because of the lecturer want fresh specimen,so me and my roomate went walk around our hse area to find insects.we have no insect net,so we use racket to replace it.haha.during catching the insect,thr was a lot of fun.me have really long time no catch insects since primary4 or 5.it brings me think bck my childhood.my catching insect skills still thr.i still able to catch dragon flies by using my own hand with any tool.cool leh?hahaaaaaaaa.......i still remember the scene my roomate very scared of the insects.very funny.
today, we learned new another "old-new" thing.that was abt how to make chemical solution ourselves.i hv learned it during secondary school but forget the procedure already.2day lecturer give us some theories on it to recall bck our prior knowledge,and 2moro only will be hands-on activities.cant wait to do the experiment 2moro.actually science has a lot of funs if we no need to do any paper work.i hate to do assignments,portfolio,reports.............hehehe!
selina is back!
since last year, i have a long long time didn't write a blog already.last time i always write sth on my friendster blog.write down everything abt me in my blog.it is free for me because i can write anything that i want to.it is a way for me to express myself.it jz like a diary.but i have leave it so long nvr sign in to my blog world because too busy of my school work.a lot of things i need to settle,make me no time to write a blog.day by day,i nearly forget how to write a blog.i will re-start it because i saw my dear dear,who nvr write blog also create his own blog.haha!i will no longer use friendster blog,i will start my new world at blogspot here.^o^
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